Sometimes the muse simply doesn't visit me...and I am left wondering if there is anything I can say that is worth taking the time to write, or worthy of being read. I wander through my photos, and through my mind, looking for something that will inspire.
I am not a person who accepts anything less than doing things well - not from myself, and sadly, not from others. I am trying, at this ripe old age, to learn to draw, and paint. I have been doing oils for a while, passably, but not well. Lately, I have tried my hand at watercolors. In an effort to learn to accept myself, with all my imperfections, I am sharing some of my efforts with you today. You have to know this is not easy for me. I do not like for anyone to see my lack of ability.
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| The model |
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| My drawing |
But, there is a lesson for all of us here. God loves us, in spite of our imperfections. He sees beyond my pitiful efforts, all the way to the inner person who sincerely wants to do well. He knows every inch of me and accepts me as I am. He wants me to grow, and try, and learn...but He loves me where I am.
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| Art Class efforts - my first watercolor. |
I am struggling now with the desire to give up watercolors - they are too hard, I can't do it well, I will never learn. Watercolors dry too fast, I haven't figured out the technique...the list of reasons not to try goes on and on. Maybe I should try acrylics, or go back to my oils.
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| The still life I set up and did by myself at home... |
And then, I realize...those are all excuses. And these excuses are just another way to avoid doing what I need to do - practice. I am never going to succeed if I don't try. And, when I look back at these, they really aren't awful - they aren't particularly good - but they aren't awful. And I realize that my life is a lot like that. I haven't been awful - not particularly good - but not awful. And, I will never be any better if I don't practice. I need to practice being in God's Word on a daily basis, and praying daily, and striving to follow Him.
I guess that was worthy of being written, and read, today. I hope it blesses someone.
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Spiritual Sundays.